Finding Worth in the Middle of the Earth-07.30.2017

Finding peace is hard, you give yourself the opportunity of a lifetime by not being discouraged by life’s hurdles. You push through and try a little harder everyday but sometimes is trying enough? I’ve been battling with that question, I see a gleam of hope or at least what appears to be. I pull at it as much as I can but all it does is recede. Perhaps this is God telling me something. I have to stay on the path, I have to choose happiness over $$$$. It’s not just about the money, it’s about success, a career,  and a path that I must believe in. God will bring this peace I seek to fruition but not without some obstacles. This peace that I have, the world didn’t give it and the world can’t take it….

Finding Worth in the Middle of the Earth: 7.23.2017

I woke up this morning with a plan. Not necessarily a firm one or even one that can be achieved in one day but a plan nonetheless. I realized that in order to achieve this happiness that I’m after, it can’t be without some discourse. I mean who do I think I am? In life there has to be pain and I give advice like this to people all the time but never take it myself. Not necessarily knowing the direct path I should follow or even if this is a path I want to start but I am ready for the challenge either way. So many times in our lives we get soooo so caught up with the future and seeing our lives 5 or even 10 years from now. By doing that we are causing ourselves to not really enjoy the day or the present! I’m going to take it day by day….

Whispers controlled. 

“Slightly disrupted from this uncomfortable situation. Why would she do that ? Trust ? What happened to that, I thought I could depend on her and I thought she loved me? Disappointed is how I feel.” That’s all he could think, all he could muster up was a million questions with no answers as he catches his mom in the most uncomfortable situation.  ( More coming soon ) 

Finding Worth in the Middle of the Earth: 7.16.2017

A week of stress and deadlines that are being met but barely. I’m still shining more than my peers (Beyoncé comes to mind) but is it enough? Life just keeps handing me thankless opportunities to grow and develop the type of professional I want to be but do I want to be a “professional” maybe I just want to be creative! Then again, I do like making money, sometimes too much or maybe not enough. I have associates that are making the big bucks but are they happy? It reminds me of a phrase that one of my professors use to utter, ” Money can only buy happiness , if the happiness you after can be bought.” It’s time to take steps, steps to achieving and being all I want to be. All I want to be is…..

Finding Worth in the Middle of the Earth- 7.9.2017

Finally!! A weekend not filled with emergencies and headaches but Monday is tomorrow.  So of course that means another day of hard-work and surprises. Let’s just hope I can manage. I’ve been searching a lot lately, searching for the thing that brings me joy and how I can share that with the world, how I can utilize it position myself for growth. It doesn’t have to be money or the perfect job but something. I mean others look at my life and think I have a pretty good handle on things and I mean I do. I’m in a great relationship and I have great friends and some family support. But what’s missing? The days never seemed this short before. I never seemed this short before, temper rises and then settles at the drop of a dime. Clarity. Something to bring blue skies to this cloudy day. The clouds drop and settles on the ground like fog and I’m missing….

Daily Prompt: Jangle

Walking across the room, all she can here is the jangling of his keys. She fears that he’s drunk again and he’s looking to start trouble. Luckily, she dropped the kids off earlier that night to stay with their grandmother. She thinks to herself, ” I’m really getting tired of this, but if I’m really tired why don’t I leave.” She blames finances and the kids needing their father in their lives but how can she continue to let this happen to her. Jangle, jangle the sound is getting closer and she doesn’t know what to do.  via Daily Prompt: Jangle