Finding Worth in the Middle of the Earth: 7.23.2017

I woke up this morning with a plan. Not necessarily a firm one or even one that can be achieved in one day but a plan nonetheless. I realized that in order to achieve this happiness that I’m after, it can’t be without some discourse. I mean who do I think I am? In life there has to be pain and I give advice like this to people all the time but never take it myself. Not necessarily knowing the direct path I should follow or even if this is a path I want to start but I am ready for the challenge either way. So many times in our lives we get soooo so caught up with the future and seeing our lives 5 or even 10 years from now. By doing that we are causing ourselves to not really enjoy the day or the present! I’m going to take it day by day….

Whispers controlled. 

“Slightly disrupted from this uncomfortable situation. Why would she do that ? Trust ? What happened to that, I thought I could depend on her and I thought she loved me? Disappointed is how I feel.” That’s all he could think, all he could muster up was a million questions with no answers as he catches his mom in the most uncomfortable situation.  ( More coming soon ) 

Finding Worth in the Middle of the Earth: 7.16.2017

A week of stress and deadlines that are being met but barely. I’m still shining more than my peers (Beyoncé comes to mind) but is it enough? Life just keeps handing me thankless opportunities to grow and develop the type of professional I want to be but do I want to be a “professional” maybe I just want to be creative! Then again, I do like making money, sometimes too much or maybe not enough. I have associates that are making the big bucks but are they happy? It reminds me of a phrase that one of my professors use to utter, ” Money can only buy happiness , if the happiness you after can be bought.” It’s time to take steps, steps to achieving and being all I want to be. All I want to be is…..

Finding Worth in the Middle of the Earth- 7.9.2017

Finally!! A weekend not filled with emergencies and headaches but Monday is tomorrow.  So of course that means another day of hard-work and surprises. Let’s just hope I can manage. I’ve been searching a lot lately, searching for the thing that brings me joy and how I can share that with the world, how I can utilize it position myself for growth. It doesn’t have to be money or the perfect job but something. I mean others look at my life and think I have a pretty good handle on things and I mean I do. I’m in a great relationship and I have great friends and some family support. But what’s missing? The days never seemed this short before. I never seemed this short before, temper rises and then settles at the drop of a dime. Clarity. Something to bring blue skies to this cloudy day. The clouds drop and settles on the ground like fog and I’m missing….

Finding Worth in the Middle of the Earth-6.25.2017

4AM?! Yep that’s the time I had to get up today because of another issue on that thing sitting on my nightstand. That thing that has us all hypnotized by it’s sleek metal and glass melding together to create our planners, “lives”, relationships! Oh how I wish I could throw this fine piece of glass and metal against the wall. Woken up again with the same old story and maybe that’s what the issue is, it’s the same old story some days change others remain the same but here I am again caught in this rhyming game. I know that there is more out there because who would’ve imagined this little piece of glass and metal running our whole lives, who would’ve dreamt it?! I tell you who, a rich son of a… There is so much that I can achieve but am I ready for it, being a little fish in this big pond (boring analogy, I know) can be so annoying. The potential lies within me, it lies within us all but taking that next step can sometimes be frightening especially at 4am…

Finding Worth in the Middle of the Earth -6.18.17

Starting over yet again, looking out the window of my life watching so many people walk past my little stone wall. Is this really what all these years of school was for? To just sit by a window wandering about my career path, my “life” . Ohhh I’m so tired of this unnecessary push for perfection that I plague myself with everyday. Can I blame anyone but myself for this? Is there anyone else to blame for this really? Yes, I could look at society I mean it helps to shape us all or at least shape what we think the idea of “all” is. But maybe it’s time…