Finding Worth in the Middle of the Earth- 7.9.2017

Finally!! A weekend not filled with emergencies and headaches but Monday is tomorrow.  So of course that means another day of hard-work and surprises. Let’s just hope I can manage. I’ve been searching a lot lately, searching for the thing that brings me joy and how I can share that with the world, how I can utilize it position myself for growth. It doesn’t have to be money or the perfect job but something. I mean others look at my life and think I have a pretty good handle on things and I mean I do. I’m in a great relationship and I have great friends and some family support. But what’s missing? The days never seemed this short before. I never seemed this short before, temper rises and then settles at the drop of a dime. Clarity. Something to bring blue skies to this cloudy day. The clouds drop and settles on the ground like fog and I’m missing….

Finding Worth in the Middle of the Earth -6.18.17

Starting over yet again, looking out the window of my life watching so many people walk past my little stone wall. Is this really what all these years of school was for? To just sit by a window wandering about my career path, my “life” . Ohhh I’m so tired of this unnecessary push for perfection that I plague myself with everyday. Can I blame anyone but myself for this? Is there anyone else to blame for this really? Yes, I could look at society I mean it helps to shape us all or at least shape what we think the idea of “all” is. But maybe it’s time…