Finding peace is hard, you give yourself the opportunity of a lifetime by not being discouraged by life’s hurdles. You push through and try a little harder everyday but sometimes is trying enough? I’ve been battling with that question, I see a gleam of hope or at least what appears to be. I pull at it as much as I can but all it does is recede. Perhaps this is God telling me something. I have to stay on the path, I have to choose happiness over $$$$. It’s not just about the money, it’s about success, a career, and a path that I must believe in. God will bring this peace I seek to fruition but not without some obstacles. This peace that I have, the world didn’t give it and the world can’t take it….
I woke up this morning with a plan. Not necessarily a firm one or even one that can be achieved in one day but a plan nonetheless. I realized that in order to achieve this happiness that I’m after, it can’t be without some discourse. I mean who do I think I am? In life there has to be pain and I give advice like this to people all the time but never take it myself. Not necessarily knowing the direct path I should follow or even if this is a path I want to start but I am ready for the challenge either way. So many times in our lives we get
soooo so caught up with the future and seeing our lives 5 or even 10 years from now. By doing that we are causing ourselves to not really enjoy the day or the present! I’m going to take it day by day….
Searching…searching for the peace that passes all understanding in the midst of fog. The world we live in has been plagued with the darkness that we have launched ourselves in, the pain that we know all to well. Are we ready for this searching to end or will it ever end? This spiritual journey is not paved with easiness but with obstacles that we all most overcome in order to be spiritually connected to God, to each other, to ourselves. Faith is something that we all struggle with, when faced with the many challenges in life, we cannot give up but instead be encouraged. Encourage not only yourself but others to stick to this journey. We are all facing things that could break us but it won’t because searching for that peace means that we haven’t decided to give up just yet.
4AM?! Yep that’s the time I had to get up today because of another issue on that thing sitting on my nightstand. That thing that has us all hypnotized by it’s sleek metal and glass melding together to create our planners, “lives”, relationships! Oh how I wish I could throw this fine piece of glass and metal against the wall. Woken up again with the same old story and maybe that’s what the issue is, it’s the same old story some days change others remain the same but here I am again caught in this rhyming game. I know that there is more out there because who would’ve imagined this little piece of glass and metal running our whole lives, who would’ve dreamt it?! I tell you who, a rich son of a… There is so much that I can achieve but am I ready for it, being a little fish in this big pond
(boring analogy, I know) can be so annoying. The potential lies within me, it lies within us all but taking that next step can sometimes be frightening especially at 4am…
Starting over yet again, looking out the window of my life watching so many people walk past my little stone wall. Is this really what all these years of school was for? To just sit by a window wandering about my career path, my “life” . Ohhh I’m so tired of this unnecessary push for perfection that I plague myself with everyday. Can I blame anyone but myself for this? Is there anyone else to blame for this really? Yes, I could look at society I mean it helps to shape us all or at least shape what we think the idea of “all” is. But maybe it’s time…